The makeup helped me overcome the loss of my eyes

There are not many silver bars to lose eyeball, but leave you with an excellent fabric. The vision was initially lost in November 2022 after a mass of inflammation of blood flow to the optic nerve was cut. He resisted many multiple hospitals, resisted two high -dose corticosteroids, endured 10 days of radiation, and spent more than a year in immunotherapy. With the growth of the mass, it began to push the eye about 26 mm from the face (some days were worse than others). This did not help that the eyelid hangs in a permanent wink and it appears that the skin surrounding red and roses, due to a lack of sewage.

Before my health problems, I did not leave the house without makeup. At college, I paste on the Ardell Wispies for my lectures at eight in the morning and hit Pan on the Contour Anastasia Beverly Hills (like anyone else in 2018). It was an outlet. Source of creativity. But when my disability became more clearly clearer, my relationship with beauty fell on the side of the road. I watched educational programs and found myself envious of unpopular skin and full eyes eyes. I tried to imagine how some make -up trends would look like, but for most days, looking at the mirror was enough to challenge.

In August 2023, I took my mind about some things. First, I did not want to spend the rest of my life in hiding from the eyeball. Two, you needed to improve in its celebration. With a wonderful prayer and an amount of eyelashes, accurately attached groups of silver rhinestones on my face, creating two bright tears under the eyes of Al -Ai. Share video Documenting the process, and managed to reach more than 500,000 people and hundreds of gentle commentators.

The more I try makeup, the more I appreciate this new version of myself.

Inspired by the supportive internet response, I continued to take advantage of my unique features (including all the area of ​​the additional cover). I tried everything from rhinestones to Googly eyes (I managed to contain 18 of them, in the event that you are wondering). Ultimately, I started matching my make -up with different eye spots, attracting hearts on my cheeks for a Valentine’s Day Patch And indulgence in a blue luster for Look inspired by porcelain.

When I finally removed the eye in May 2024, the celebration began again. I learned that the artificial limbs should not be frightening or frightening. It can be beautiful and others – like wearable art pieces. I started a series where I match my makeup with “The Enjoyable Eye” (creative synthetic eyes that are not intended to be realistic). For the eyes of the “Coralin” button, I turned myself to a doll. For the blue and pink “Galaxy” eyes, I used the temporary butterfly tattoo To create Sparkley wings on both sides of my face.

The audience’s perception of “Al -Ain” ranges from radical acceptance to informal cruelty. I am trying to control unwanted medical advice and unusual jokes on social media, but it is not always easy. Before removing the eye, I used to wake up early to put shiny and heavy hidden eye shades. No one can mean me if my makeup is fun enough, I thought about myself. mistake!

“[It’s] A bacterial infection is likely to be from these terrible eyelashes, “One of them commented on the PS video about mystery. Another once wrote on my page Tiktok.

I have eased the comments after removing the eye, but I will not forget them any time soon. Fortunately, whenever I try make -up, say what matters to me as anyone else says. I am proud of the extent I reached, and I still find beauty in this new version of myself – something I am concerned that I will not be able to do it. I hope this is the happy ending of a very troubled story. But if more change occurs on my way, I feel comfortable knowing that I have the tools needed to discover them.

Chandler Plante (she/she) is an assistant health and fitness editor in PS. She has more than four years of experience in professional journalism, and she was previously working as an editorial assistant for People magazine and contributing to Group Ladygunn, Millie and Bustle Digital.